10:53 p.m. - 2006-08-31
God Will Pull Me Through
Tonight I started feeling depressed again. I don't really know why. Very, very few people know that I have problems with depression and low self-esteem. I have since I was 15.
I think maybe because I feel like I've let God down again. And I don't want to do that. I'm not perfect and I never will be. I try my hardest to serve God and love and care about everyone and I know I'll never be perfect, but God really means a lot to me in my life.
I want people to be able to see Christ through me, you know? I know I've made my mistakes in my past. And I know I'll never not need God to forgive me.
I guess how I feel right now will help me grow emotionally and closer to God though, so that's always a good thing.
But, I just got to remember to keep my faith up and trust God and that he knows I'm trying my best.
