11:16 a.m. - 2006-02-05
The Splendid Emotion We Call Love
Love is a funny thing, isn't it?
I care so much about Resa and she sees right through me. She always goes for the guys that end up hurting her. I'd do my absolute best to make her as happy as possible and yet she says I can't be more than a friend to her.
Why does this always happen to me? Why does something so good have to be so painful? It seems like this always happens to me, you know? I love her more than anything and I can't even be with her. It's not fair. But, I know God will work everything out for the best for me though.
It's like I say. You just never know how the future will work out.
Who knows. Maybe one day, He'll work this out the way I'd like it. That I keep praying for. I know God will help me and handle everything that I can't. I just have to do my best to believe that everything will work out on His time though. It gets hard sometimes, but that's how it goes.
In her Live Journal, she wrote about her ex-boyfriend (they broke up not too long ago). She said she still loves him, but he's moved on and wants a relationship. She mentioned how there are three other guys besides him who wants one with her (though I don't know if that's counting me or anything), but doesn't want one right now.
Is it wrong to hope that one day we'll end up together? Maybe. But, I don't care. In other news, I can not believe that in exactly two months from today, I will be turning 20 years old. I'll no longer be a teenager. That's something. And it's something that I've had my Diaryland account since I was 14 years old. Haha
